Things with Rob have been making a bit less progress than I'd like. But I still can't complain. We pretty much talked about our situation and it's completely in the open that we're on a more than friend status. Now I'm hearing that he told his best friend he thinks he'll make me his girlfriend soon.
I've made up my mind and I have one objection to dating Rob. He is definitely not physical enough for me. Once he improves his body language towards me, I would love to have him as my boyfriend. I don't know if it makes me sound easy for saying this, but we have been getting so close the past two weeks I expect to be more than just talking to him. I know I'm being stupid for not initiating anything but I haven't been able to bring myself to do it. I haven't felt this way towards someone in a long time and I don't want to rush into things and ruin it if he's not ready. I can't keep sitting around and waiting though. Next opportunity I have, I gotta do something.
This weekend would have been perfect. Both Friday night and Saturday, this kid had a small get-together. It was only about 6-10 people each night but Rob was there so he and I had a good time. They were the drinking kind of get-togethers. I didn't want to get completely retarded in front of him though. I guess I'm a lot more experienced at drinking than him. We both drank the same amount and he was completely hammered. I felt bad it had to have been embarrassing for him. There were a few times me and him were alone and I regret not making a move when I could. I was a little annoyed that he didn't. I know I shouldn't have been, though. It was just as much my fault as his. Especially Saturday night, I thought for sure something was going to happen. We both slept over there. He didn't even cuddle with me or anything. It was disappointing but I know I could have done something about it. Next time I will.
I've been complaining about all the things Rob hasn't done, but honestly he makes me so happy. My stomach still ties in knots when I'm with him... and it's a good thing. If I can just get our relationship to move to a physical level everything will truly be perfect. I've never had to make a first move on a guy before and I'm beyond scared. But I have a feeling he's even more scared than I am. According to most guys, they say they'll never object to a girl's touch. Hopefully that's true for this one.
Any opinions? What would you do if you were me?
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